I didn't think I could have any more bad days atm... I mean with the continuation of these aftershocks (some larger ones than usual) I think we've all got quite enough to deal with, but then I get hit with something personally and my whole world just stops once again.
It was bad enough last year when our little household lost our lovely cat Rosie - she'd been 13 years old and done quite well as far as health and things go, and then she went and got hit by a car instead of being granted the chance to die in her sleep as all old people and animals deserve. Took me weeks if not months to get over that... and then today I'm at work waiting to start my shift as I was covering for someone else, and mum informs me that she'd just heard from my sister (who'd come to stay for a couple of days, bringing the kids and their dog who's about to have puppies) that my nephew had opened our rabbit's cage to pet him earlier today, and the rabbit had promptly escaped only to be caught by their dog and as a consequence died. Whether it was from fright or the dog had actually broken his neck or something I haven't found out, but then I'm not sure I want to know...
Jax (bunny's name, called after Jax Teller from Sons of Anarchy ^^) had been fine with our dogs... initially they'd been very fascinated with him of course, but after a while that died off and they all sort of just hung around doing their own thing whenever Jax was let out of his cage to go run around as he loved to do.
Then my sister's dickhead on-off boyfriend (who's periodically on drugs) causes problems at their place and my sister runs to us with her kids and dog to stay for a couple of days while the police sort the dickhead boyfriend out >.< So I know it's not logical, and my nephew's only 11, but he'd been instructed never to let Jax out while their dog was there, as Mum didn't know how Tia (the dog in question) would react. Apparently pretty badly... *sigh*
So yeah I know it's not logical, and I do love him because he's family, but I can't help but blame all of them for what's happened today... I may change my mind given a little time to calm down, but my nephew didn't listen to what he was told so he's partly to blame for poor Jax's death (though I'm sure he knows this and has probably beaten himself up enough about this today, so I'm not going to say anything to him) as well as my sister for bringing the dog despite Tia being pregnant and also not leaving the boyfriend once and for all since he's such a waste of space, and her dickhead boyfriend for being such a loser and a druggie retard > Unfair to blame anyone, as logically I know life can be just a series of bad luck events and it's not anyone's fault really... but all the same, how could anyone have let this happen? It's weird, I didn't really think I'd been so attached to Jax, but it's just hard for someone so softhearted as me to not picture that he might have been in pain or scared when it happened to him... and it just makes me even more upset.
So all in all, not a great start to the New Year even though on the day itself I saw it in with watching awesome movies in a movie marathon sucky continuation though, but I do hope it gets better... I'll keep praying, I won't lose faith in an improved year no matter what. <3
Sorry to put a damper on everyone's new year! Forgive me... I just needed to rant...